I used to be, in a past life, a stand up comedian. Around the same time I did a bit of acting (a couple of bits of TV, two plays, and a half decent part in a movie seeing as you asked!)
I loved all of the above stuff, honestly, it was amazing to be in front of an audience and feeling their reaction at a stand up gig (you feel it, you don't see it, don't ask me why or how, but you do.)
The reason I gave up telling jokes and stumbling about a stage was pretty simple really: I fell in love with writing.
I still do a bit of radio stuff in the UK for the BBC and LBC and I love it. It's not as immediate as being on a stage, but it gives me a little buzz of adrenaline, and drags me out of my office to talk to other people (half the country) now and then.
The thing is though, acting, radio, and stand-up comedy were like summer romances.
Writing is the ONE.
Writing is the thing that makes me whole, the place where I can finally find myself.
The crazy thing is, sitting in a room on my own with a keyboard and a coffee gives me the biggest buzz I've ever had.
Writing a good scene, putting the "thrill" in "thriller" is like nothing else I've ever done. I feel the gun behind my ear, my fingers ache from clinging on to a windowsill. My heart feels like it is coming out my chest sometimes, and the tears in a character's eyes are always in my own.
I'm such a lucky guy, I've got the best job in the world.
Thank you for giving it to me.
The Darkest Hour A Novel